懂吗，现在已经是今天了，不是明天

懂吗，今天我要重新开始了，不是自我安慰

懂吗，再大的痛苦，到现在已经快没有了

懂吗，我还是我，我已不是我

 

懂吗，做不到春暖花开，我还可以面朝大海

懂吗，即使不能海阔天空，我也可以主动退一步

懂吗，许多东西你拿得起了，你就得放下

懂吗，我并不是坏小孩，可是大家都以为我是

 

懂吗，现在我身边的人都在彻夜不眠

懂吗，其实他们也没有老师想得那么坏

懂吗，虽然我没有和他们任何接触

懂吗，其实他们和我一样，都在寻觅一种最适合的方式享受生活

 

懂吗，明天就是周末了

懂吗，本来我可以回家了

懂吗，我却不知道该不该回去，好不好回去，回去做什么

懂吗，如果让我在此刻面对爸爸妈妈，我会流泪的

 

懂吗，其实我很向往宁静的生活

懂吗，其实我很想做别人眼里所谓的“好人”

懂吗，我内心深处隐藏着的是阳光的味道

懂吗，我的忧伤不是与生俱来的，青春的明媚才是我的渴望

 

懂吗，不懂就别装懂，如果快乐是一种责任，我似乎已经遗失了，遗失的美好有时候让人回味，教人珍重，却更令人心痛，我只有20，却在博客上叫嚣人生路途的l坎坷与酸楚，我只有青春的砝码，却注定要我把自己赌上去，如果输了自己就等于输了全部，但是我还是决定赌一把。

你们懂吗，不要怜悯我，因为你有你的自尊，而我也有......

 

 

 

 

  Tonight is a lonely night,I have no place to go ,I have no person to talk with ......I am alone,I am lonely.

  The moment I left the dorm ,I had decided to have a night which would diferent from ever had .in my opinion I had lost myself,who can save me,I need not a little

  It is 2 olock in the morning,yesterday I had slept deeply ,but this moment ,I can not find my feelings,I know it is just a pain on my way to somewhere,but if i had fallen down badly,how could I stand up,how could?

  In my heart ,there is a large mountain,maybe when I get to the top,I could succeed in touching the clouds,sometimes I think I could go there myself,with no other person next to,I have my confidence and belief,so I am always sure that I could ,I can.Bnt when I got hurt again and again,I did not know what to do ,I tried my best to cry,to relax myself,but no way.Till now I have lost myself,I have no feeling in my future ,I just want to rest a long long time,no one to interrupt me.

  God ,if i have fault ,please punish me a time,because I do not have so much strength to fight against you,do you see my prey,do you understand my feeling,do you have your goodness,if do,please do not leave me,because I need you,I need a lot

  Everyday we have many difficulties to deal with,so do I.I complained about the hard days oftenly and oftenly,but the problem just increased every other day.I do not think I am negative,but I have to see my negative,why?Is it my life,or I should say it is my way to success,time is not up?

  I miss father and mother so much,but I have to meet them with a big smile,I have to say "I am living quite well,do not bother me......"I am so tired that sometimes I really think that life is not important,but If I do it like this ,how could the life to be,I do not know ,I do not know ,I do not know......

  This is a hard substitute against my heart and I can not breath,if who have medicine,please come to save me,do you know only a coat or a  hand can bring me to the happiness,if i have a choose,I prefer to be anywhere but not here. 

  Maybe no one know me ,no one understand me,but I will not cry this time,because I am waiting,waiting a lot i need,if there is nothing left ,I am still waiting here waiting an end......   

  however painfull it is ,I will continue to go down this road,even though there is only myself, I will not give up untill I am not existed.

  I need a lot ,a lot......

 

［火车厢一列列经过了隧道
风轻吹有木棉的味道
探著头数一数旧时的街道
我们的故事有多少］
　　　窗外的雨依旧这样下着，浠浠沥沥，就仿佛我连绵的思绪，剪不断理还乱，阴霾的天际渐渐透出一道浅浅的蔚蓝，深邃的大地合着雨滴的节拍演奏着一首独树一帜的钢琴曲，冥冥之中，这是多么美的一幅动景画......
　　　一直不喜欢雨天，因为这样的日子，天空在泪水中失去了它的原味，而我们的心也会在不知不觉中迷失方向．不然，广阔的天空如果没了白云，云要到哪里去飘浮；浓烈的心如果少了堪蓝的天空，寂寞要到哪里去抚慰......
［水稻田阳光下追逐的嬉闹
小河边放只船水中漂
蒲公英吹散了像雪随风飘
那属于夏天的记号］
　　　人们总说我这个寂寞的孩子，因为她们说我的眼里始终透露出一种忧郁的讯息，挥之不来也挥之不去，我不想去辩驳什么，虽然我试图想否认她们说的一切，我只是学着释然，继续开始我＂寂寞＂的旅程，我也会时不时的抬头看天空，看蔚蓝中泛些些白的天空，我会用尽全力对天空微笑，让心的天空开满银色的梨花！
　　　人生旅途也许就像天空的颜色一样变幻莫测，殷红，浅灰，墨紫，深蓝...只是在那一刻停留，蔚蓝才是它亘古不变的原色，有时候这样的颜色也会可遇而不可求，但只要我们把心放开，双手合拾，潜心祈祷，心一定会在自己的天空自由飞翔！
　　　当二十岁在远方召唤我时，我有些显得不知所措，我害怕自己一时转换不了角色，突然夭折，我害怕梦想的天空刹时乌云密布，将我的心遮掩，我害怕蔚蓝离我远去，从此消失得无影无踪......纵然我害怕，我还是没有停下脚步，因为我明白这是生命的必须，是我无可奈何之后必然的坚定．
　　　席慕容说：青春的美丽与珍贵，就在于它的无邪与无瑕，在于它的可遇而不可求，在于它的永不重回．我怔怔地有了一些了悟，昨日湛蓝的天漂忽的云昨日的欢笑昨日的一切就好象是过眼云烟跟我们曾经一起经历的斑斓时光一道远去从此不再触手可及，或许这一切一切我们都只能作为一种美好的救赎深埋海底，等到天空需要我们需要的时候再从回忆里搁浅出来......
[疏离的城市
和轻狂的年少
苦的甜的只有自己知道
有一个声音不能忘掉
还记得外婆对我轻轻唱
孩子不要忘记了
人间的遭遇有它的规则
有一天当世界都变了
别忘记天空原来的颜色]
     雨依然在下，小了很多，不久之后就该放晴了吧，让我们在心里期待天空原来的颜色......